How you define yourself

I'm OK. 

Which is something I didn't think I'd ever be able to say, at least not when I was a great deal younger.

Not being OK, or partly broken was so much a part of who I am and was it's hard to separate it out. But now I look at my life and while its not perfect I'm OK. And I wonder does it still define who I am now? So much so that when something good happens,  a part of me is always waiting for the bad to follow. Because deep down I don't think it can last. History has shown me otherwise, or is that just self fulfilling prophecy or worse some sort of warped coping mechanism.

I don't really have the answer.

However questions remain, more so because when I encountered others that have shared this kindred path of being so disconnected from life that you are fatalistic in all your outlooks. You know how to recognise it. And I think do they see it in me? Do I wear it like a badge or am I now normal?

When is it safe to be happy?

Like millions all over the world I love watching Game of Thrones and the brutality of it doesn't shock me quite as much as it should. Not because I've read some of the books or because I can predict this or that in the plot. Because I already see a world where the hero dies, where evil flourishes. And therefore I wonder when I'm happy am I just sticking my head in the sand.

Or is it alright to pretend even for a short while.


12. Morelli's

Morelli's Gelato

The good news is there is more Gelato out there. The bad news was, this isn't a good addition.

This place has the advantage of being right on my door step, so this was a dangerous prospect. I've no idea how long the Portobello Road branch has been there but I've certainly never noticed it. Being in a rush and happening on this place after I'd already eaten a huge lunch all I could manage was one scoop.

Given the high price it seems all I could afford was one scoop anyway. This might sound pedantic but that scoop did not fill the cup - like all the other places that really pack it in there. Nor were the staff particularly open to letting us try other flavours.

But I digress. I have to say while this wasn't the worst coconut I've had it was very disappointing. It was heavy and tasted more like a cheap ice cream then a light gelato. I was also overly cold. One of the things I enjoy about gelato is that it is lighter and a tad warmer, which makes it super runny and you have to gobble it before its gone. I also don't think the taste had infused that well because it tasted more like vanilla. Now its possible I picked badly or this was a great batch. But given the amount of choices around, I don't think I'll be going back.

Flavour: Coconut - 2.5
Texture: Heavy - 2
Price: £3.80 (1 scoop) - 2
Experience: 3
Venue: 3
Total Score: 2.25