I haven't been sleeping well. Between the ages of 14 and 20 I was an insomniac, I used to spend the nights reading books, watching an obscene amount of trashy movies and working. I don't know how or why it changed but suddenly I could sleep at night. So you'd think that if I missed some sleep or if I had a restless night it would be old hat.
Alas no, every night this week I wake up three or four times a night fully awake and when I do sleep I have very bizarre dreams. This makes the morning rather strange as I'm trying to figure out if I'm still asleep. I feel like the crew of the Enterprise (Star Trek Next Generation in Season 4 Episode 17, Night Terrors) when lack of R.E.M sleep drove them crazy, except I'm getting the sleep and I'm already crazy. Anyway I found it really interesting to read that Bears also suffer if they don't hibernate in time.
What I hate about the whole thing is that we all need sleep to function but there are no allowances if your not getting any. I hate smug happy, well rested people and the last thing I want to do is go to work and listen to everyone comment 'Oh you look tired' and the most awful words anyone can say to another 'Cheer up'.
It sends a shudder through my entire body, I have to physically restrain myself, I'm sorry but I haven't slept, I'm soaking wet from the freezing rain and have every right to be miserable if I want to, don't tell me to cheer up I don't want to be bloody cheerful! Instead I grind my teeth and smile, reminding myself that acting like a psycho will delay my cup of tea.